Friday, May 9, 2014

Vulnerability and Courage

On a sunny evening in late April, I found myself in the company of twenty or so other people in the basement of the Church preparing to talk about leadership. I didn't quite know what to expect so I listened hard to the video that opened the session. It was a video of Brene Brown's 2010 TedEx talk entitled "The Power of Vulnerability" https://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability. If you have not already seen this talk, I highly suggest that you follow the link above.

Brown's research reveals that we, as adult Americans, are bad at "doing" vulnerability. And because we are bad at being vulnerable, we numb emotion. When we run from being vulnerable and numb our emotions, we:
     (a) make everything that is uncertain, certain;
     (b) perfect: people, places, things-everything around us and in our lives; and
     (c) pretend that what we do doesn't have an effect on people.

However, if we let ourselves be vulnerable, we will be seen-deeply seen for who we are. At that point then we can begin to be our authentic selves. While it is true that vulnerability is the birthplace of shame and fear, it is also the mother to joy, creativity, belonging, and love.
            
While the video resonated with me, I still I found it a bit puzzling that it was chosen to launch a meeting about leadership in a church. However, as the meeting progressed and we started to discuss the "Big Stuff" in the Church, I was finally able to connect the two together.
                
Representatives from the Finance Committee and the Board of Trustees presented a joint request for approval by the Church Council. The request was for authority to appoint a task force to investigate the options for use of the Post Office site. As with most things concerning the Post office site, the discussion that ensued showed the spectrum of opinions on the issue. Here is where I had my "Aha" moment, as Oprah likes to call it.

What I drew from Brown's talk, viewed from the lens of Church leadership, is that leaders need to be allowed to be vulnerable in order to truly listen and be authentic in their relationships with others. The task force for which the Trustees and Finance Committee were seeking approval is created in order to be vulnerable with the congregation in respect to the Post Office site. We as a congregation are frightened about what the site holds for us. We are scared to do nothing, yet we are also scared of doing too much or taking the wrong steps. And because we are frightened, our actions show we are striving to make the outcome perfect, and make the uncertain, certain. Without the permission to be vulnerable in our processes, and leaders to carry out that courageous task, we will only end up taking action which pretends that it does not have an effect on people.
                
So, I see that the task force is charged to be visionaries, to let us, the congregation of First United Methodist Church, be seen and to present not one answer ("the" Answer) but different options for discussion. In so doing, the task force will enable the congregants to connect, rather than divide, over the future of the Post Office Site and the mission of this Church.
  

- Jessica L. Merkel

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